First off, let me start this blog post by stating how wonderful it feels to be writing again. It has been a lonesome three months without writing…and I blame that on my final semester of college. So, for the sake of not leaving a giant life event gap on my blog, I shall give a quick recap of the past three months:
School kicked my butt
I graduated college with a Bachelors of Science degree in Psychology
…That’s about it.
(There are fun little life details threaded between those two statements, but most of the past few months were consumed by school, studying, essays, reading text books, crying because I was over it, morning coffee runs, afternoon coffee runs, late night coffee runs, some more crying, and every once in a while, the feeling of vindication that accompanied getting an ‘A’ on an assignment).
I have graduated, yay! (I’m reveling in this, if you can’t tell). Now I have a lot more free mental room to focus on the things I want to focus on, which is exciting! As soon as I walked across the stage and received my degree, I felt a surge of joy, hope, and adrenaline run through me. When the emotion wore off and the celebrations subsided, I began creating lists upon lists of all that I need to do in order to be qualified as a young adult who was “doing something with her life”. The instant that my excitement wore off and reality set in, I felt this weight of needing to measure up come over me.
The free mental space that I once saw as a blessing became a daunting reminder that a huge chapter of my life had come to a close and “real life” was beginning. Each moment became heavier as this thought settled in. It felt as if all of the wonder and awe that I felt towards life after graduating was diminishing at a rapid rate. As I was getting lost on this downward spiral, I received a sweet reminder at the best time possible. My friend Lisa sent me the most wonderful message of congratulations and encouragement. I was unintentionally subscribing to a negative pattern of thought about my future, and this interruption from Lisa helped jolt me out it.
“What’s next? What this year holds for you is unlimited. You are at the age that you are young enough to have your whole life ahead of you but old enough to be taken seriously. Responsible enough to take on the world but not yet tied down with responsibilities. Crazy enough to try change the world yet wise enough to actually make it work. 2016 could totally be your year and with God for you who can stand against you. I know this sounds a bit rich, but there is something in my spirit that needs to tell you to walk into 2016 with courage, fierceness and a huge expectation for what you could achieve”. –Lisa Calis
I love it. “With God for you, who can be against you?” God has given us permission. Rather, He is begging us to dream beyond borders.
“Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.” Joshua 1:9 [MSG]